I don’t know..
I guess I’m going to write every time I feel a need to binge eat. Because I have discovered that is my problem. I don’t know how to deal with it. I don’t even know if writing will help me cope. All I know is that things have gone from bad……………..to worse…….when it comes to my eating. I’m sitting here on the computer, reading articles and information about Binge Eating Disorder and I’m shaking my head in disbelief that they actually diagnose people with this. As I’m reading I’m having a huuuuuuuuugeee craving for a gigantic bowl of PASTA with butter smothered all over it… when there is delisious foooooood like that who the hell wants to eat a salad? I mean honestly. I love my food. it has become a BIG part of my life. But I also want help with my problem. I don’t know if I can ever walk away from the things I love. Food (comfort food) has become my drug of choice. It is my addiction. I’m like an alcoholic on a binge drinking night…. Maybe I shouldn’t compare myself to an alcoholic, but it feels like I am. I have no insurance, so I can’t talk to someone professional…and honestly I think I need to talk to someone professional and work out some of my inner issues. You know where and how this all started..and how it just got so bad.How do you go about talking to someone professional, when you don’t have a doctor, or inssurance? Most people will laugh in your face if you don’t have the insurance to cover it………. uuuuuuurrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhh.. I’m so sorry for posting this and I’m hoping my negativity does not affect you beautiful people. I love you guys so much.. I am just soooooooooooo I don’t know.
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